A friend took the time to type this to me today...

"Trust Me one day at a time. This keeps you close to Me, responsive to My will. Trust is not a natural response, especially for those who have been deeply wounded. My Spirit within you is your resident Tutor, helping you in this supernatural endeavor. Yield to His gentle touch; be sensitive to His prompting.
Exert your will to trust Me in all circumstances. Don't let your need to understand distract you from My presence. I will equip you to get through this day victoriously, as you live in deep dependence on Me. Tomorrow is busy worrying about itself; don't get tangled up in it's worry-webs. Trust me one day at a time."

(From Sarah Young's-Jesus Calling)

Sometimes I just need to remember trust is one day at a time.

I ain't gonna lie

I ain’t gonna lie
I’m struggling
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m not liking how things are turning out
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m tired of discouraging news
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m sick of fighting the unknown
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m scared
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m dispassionate about almost everything
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m weary of wondering what is coming next
I ain’t gonna lie
I want a family to love
I ain’t gonna lie
I’m not getting the plan
I’m ain’t gonna lie
My heart is heavy and yet empty
But I ain’t gonna lie
I know I am blessed.

True Gift

My friend Steve wrote this song and shared it with me after we both had a couple of rough days.




Steve and Jenn thanks for being there!! I am prying for Julie and for you and maybe I can't work with one of you but maybe the other!!! ha!!

And then there are even other "some days"...

So today has been the best absolute day of my life...can you read the sarcasm?

My current feelings:
lonely (although I have had so many awesome friends offer to come over)
mad
angry
confused
worried
hurt
bitter
hated
frustrated
PO'd
devastated
anxious
did I mention angry
empty
lifeless
that is all that came in that 30 secons so I guess I'll stop...

After a night with no calls I thought I'm loving life until 8:02 am. Although I'll say I was expecting it the call came - I didn't get the job. That is a whole another story and I was over it by noon and while it still sucks well I was over it. Then my friend told me her sister in law was joining the C - word club and that stunk. Then at 5:18 pm and around 5:45 more news I'm not ready to dive into yet. Someone needs to pray.
So I don't know where that peace is or even where God is but that was today. So I'm going to bed so nothing else can happen and then I'm going to San Antonio with Jaime and she always calms me down so tomorrow will be the start of a fun filled 4 1/2 days of no crisis!!! (unless I have one!)